“I feel like God has forsaken me.”
Hi Anthony, I just read this blog and i am very grateful for you.
For the last nine months i have been in sheer agony since the man that i love, whom i lived for 4 years with left me for his ex girlfriend. My life have been a mess from the beginning with a very dysfunctional and emotionally unstable family and a life that has constantly denied me peace and the love that I seek.
The last nine months i have hoped that things will get better that god wants me to learn and he will return but now within the span of those nine months they have decided to get married soon.
We have never had any issues and we both were very happy. He just said that his feeling have changed though he still loved me. His ex girlfriend dumped him 5 years ago after a [dispute] with both families.
I feel very suicidal as really cant wake up and live like this. I am so dissapointed with my life and how it has turned out to be. All my life i have lived according to the will of god and how our parents have taught me to be. I feel like god has forsaken me. I am 25 years old and I am still just a waitress and I hate my job [because] I always get mental torture from there. My mother hates me and so I really have no one to talk to who understand what my guy meant to me as he gave all the support i needed.
I am going thru [these] blogs to validate myself that it is ok for me to go if I want. I dont belong here anymore. I have sacrificed enough, taking my soulmate away without a proper reason, I cant deal with. I really appreciate this blog!
First of all, I want to thank you, and commend you for reaching out in your pain.
I’m sorry it’s taken me a little while to respond to your mail, but in all honesty, I had to give a great deal of thought to what I needed to say, and to wait for the souls to give me an answer from their perspective.
The answer finally came to me while I was thinking about my journey at this time. This last year I’ve been thinking, hurting, and learning so that I could get to a point where I can teach hope to others, such as yourself.
One of the things that I’ve learned doing this work, and listening to the souls who have completed their own life journey is that everything happens to us for a reason, and for our own spiritual growth. Every thing. The positive events in our lives, as well the painful ones.
Recently, while I was in Los Angeles, California, I asked God, in prayer, if I’ll ever have a home again. What I heard in response was, “Are you willing to give up everything to follow where I lead you?”
I can tell you that was hardly what I was hoping to hear. My immediate reaction was one borne out of anger, and fear. “Everything?” I asked. “What could you possibly want from me? I’m living out of a suitcase!”
A couple of months later, in February, I finally understood what was being asked of me. I read about a woman named Barbara who played the violin. She was looking for a violin in a price range she could afford when she found a Stradivarius. The price for it was way out of the range she hoped to pay, so she sold her home so that she could buy it. By doing that she has been able to bring passion, beauty and joy into the world with her music, and to such a degree that she receives standing ovations from audiences fortunate enough to hear her play.
The 23rd of this month will be a full year that I’ve been on the road. During this time, I’ve lost a lot, including people I cherished, and wondered what the reason for this journey is. I’m starting to realize that it was to prepare me to present seminars around the country, living out of hotels and a suitcase.
It’s been said that “all healing occurs outside of our comfort zone.” I believe that this is especially true when it comes to affairs of the heart. The souls know that our lives can seemingly turn on a dime for seemingly no reason. But they are constantly saying that everything comes full circle, and what doesn’t seem to make any sense now, will make sense, eventually.
While the end of love sometimes feels as though it’s the end of our lives, our hearts continue to beat after being broken. What we don’t know now, the souls assure us, we will learn later – that we will be better people for having gone through the traumas we do, the pain that rejection makes us feel, and the loss of relationships we thought would never end.
The souls would say to you, “There are lessons for you to learn right where you are, but keep looking at the road ahead of you. Keep putting one foot in front of another. When you lose your fear that you’ll never be loved again, you’ll lose the fear that you’re not loveable.”
The fact that we are lovable, and loved more than we ever realized while we’re here is, according to the souls, the most important lesson they’ve learned on the Other Side. They say it’s a lesson we need to learn while we’re still here.
Blessings, and love,
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“Communications from the Other Side: Death is Not the End of Life, Love, or Relationships.”
Now I’m not one to read books that mediums put out because frankly, I think most of them are fake. But when my cousin said she had purchased the book and read it, I decided that I should take a look at it and see what it was all about. My curiosity got to the best of me. Let’s just say the book opened my eyes. It made me a believer in the afterlife again and in Anthony as a genuine medium. Melissa Pepples